In the dreams, they came like shadows, voices, songs, light, and gasps, they were so close, even closer than the clothes I wore. I felt like I was back to the beginning where I was walking alone in the middle of a crowd and felt cold in the middle of the blazing heat. Those dreams were so real and so clear that it made me constantly think about them.
On those few days, a word always came to my mind – “intuition”. I tried to find out more about that word and finally, I understood that intuition is an ability to understand something without rational or intellectual reasoning, it’s more about an understanding that comes suddenly, out of the awareness. Intuition is also a whisper from the heart that feels like a push to do something that sometimes even out of the ordinary and awareness of our minds.
So at that time, I tried to rethink about the dreams that came a few times and appeared clearly. By following the whisper in my heart, I tried turning those dreams into photographs because I was pushed by this feeling of thirst to reach pleasure even though pain is unavoidable. Was it just a dream that was impossible to reach or a time to pass through the phases in those dreams themselves?
This might be an emotion, but it was actually about feelings. There were sorrow, loneliness and even the most important one which was the pleasure of love that came from the Creator.
I started to think that photography was the best way to let go all of the things that were buried inside my mind. Fear, sadness, disappointment and the things outside my awareness.
About Muhammad Hidayat
Muhammad Hidayat (b).1982 Living in Aceh – Indonesia. He works as a financial staff at the government office. Getting to know photography since 2009 and starting to explore seriously at the beginning of 2015. His photos are centered on personal photography.
Photography is a media to become an illuminator to his soul and he uses photography as a medium for expression and exploring psychological knowledge that is still unknown. Therefore, not infrequently his photo project raises the story of his personal life starting from home and the reality of his own environment. For him, photography is more than pressing the shutter button, photography is like a lamp that can illuminate the darkness of the soul.
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