When I was younger I used to think that as soon as you turn 18 you will suddenly feel like an adult and understand everything in life. In reality,however, even when I reached this age I still found it difficult to talk about how I feel as a lot things didn’t make sense to me. At 17 I moved to England on my own where being surrounded with a foreign language even multiplied the struggle to fully express myself. It was then when I started to seek new ways in which this could be done.

2.5 years ago I bought my first camera (Canon 600D which I use until today) and looked up to photographers such as Alex Stoddard, Alex Currie or Rosie Hardy for their creative work. Being in a foreign country where I wasn’t confident enough to speak up, led me to create self-portraits that I quickly adopted as an alternative way of transcending the reality I felt, to a reality that others could see. I started to spend more time on my own and carry my camera with me at all times. Sometimes I would come up with a specific concept in advance, sketch it and choose the right location that would fit the mood of the intended image but even more often I just grabbed a prop and ran outside right after school while there was still some light and took pictures.

Nature is a reoccuring backdrop in my photos and in majority of them I incorporate myself as the main subject conveying the story. Coming from Slovakia where nature is so vibrant, I always felt very connected to it and saw it as a place where one could go, think and figure things out.

Some of the images are somber and full of dark motives while others encapsulate the tranquility of spending time alone which for me is a part of of growing up. The making of each photo has a story of its own. One day I would be sitting in a forest creek full of leeches (like for the ‘Poisoned Heart’ photo) and the next day I would be holding a a dead stag beetle in my mouth until I am happy with the picture. Although placing myself into these kind of scenarios isn’t always pleasant, I feel a certain sense of relief when I end up with the image I had in mind and even more so if it helps to visualise how I felt at the time.

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Words That Sting Most

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Home’s Where You Go When You Run Out Of Homes

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Unclean Soul

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Awakened Imagination

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

The Inventor Of The Mirror Poisoned The Human Heart

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Stitched Up Heart

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Down The Stream Of Thoughts

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Transformation

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Slave To My Own Mind

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Exam-Time

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Froth On The Daydream

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Peace Of Mind

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Down To Earth

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

“Solitude has soft, silky hands, but with strong fingers it grasps the heart and makes it ache with sorrow”

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Observations

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

The Summary Of Human History

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Beauty Of A Danger

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Cold Emptiness

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Held Back By Nostalgia

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

When I Awoke, The World Was On Fire

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Smudged Memories

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Falling Down To Know Where I Stand

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Floating Through Life

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits

Homesick For Places I’ve Never Known

Gregor Petrikovic Document His Journey Into Adulthood In Conceptual Self-Portraits